【圖話故事‧霧淞美景】江蘇連雲港市花果山春季出現罕見霧淞美景。在海撥600多米高的山頂玉女峰，由雲霧在樹枝上凝結而成的霧淞輕盈潔白、蔚為壯觀，使人彷彿置身於仙境。（圖：中新社）
四週熙來攘往的病人與家屬，有的靜坐等待，有的漫不經意地交談著，空調該不是很冷，可是形影單只的我雙手卻微微的顫抖著，披著的白袍無法掩蓋我內心的孤單與恐懼……那時三週前的事了，感冒的症狀已持續了好一段時間了，抗生素也吃了幾種，始終都不能完全痊愈。雖然這段時間自己醫院的工作已有點身心俱累的感覺。值班也沒真正休息過，可也不覺得身體有甚麼大礙，一週前頸上出現硬塊，著實嚇了一跳，可耳鼻喉科的醫生說該是因病菌感染而起，吃抗生素就會痊愈。聽後心裡踏實，不太在意，而後自己還是堅持做了鼻腔內窺鏡，抽了鼻腔細胞的樣本……播音處念出了我的名字，也打斷自己紊亂的思維，幾乎是形影不離的聽診器掉落地面，仿佛劃破這凝重的空氣，自己慌亂地俯身撿了起來，走進了更衣室……
我像是待宰的牛羊
我平躺著做完了CT透析，被註射的液體，那刺骨的冷仿佛將我凍結（註：某些CT透析需註射特定液體使影象更清晰）……聽著醫護人員的聊天，機器操作的咯吱聲，竟有些微妙的感覺，似乎是屠場待宰的牛羊，心情百般雜陳，深感自身的無力，不停地念佛號……那15分鐘過得比任何時刻都漫長，可還是過去了，借助里邊工作的同事，稍微瞭解到在鼻腔發現腫瘤，鄰近的淋巴線有些腫脹，自己心裡已經有譜了，疾步走至耳鼻喉科會診房見我的主診醫生，此時下著霏霏細雨，風雨搖擺中一片茫然……進入會診房，我的主診醫生坐在我的前邊，表情沉重，緩慢地告訴我──對不起，你得了鼻煙癌，字字清晰有力，對我卻如錐心之痛，心坎里開了個洞，血流如註……醫師如判官般，我永遠不會忘記。
得知罹患癌症的我，雖是醫生，也不過是一介凡夫，心裡天人交戰──是業報，因果循環，是無常給我的一個考題嗎？
我像是待宰的牛羊
我平躺著做完了CT透析，被註射的液體，那刺骨的冷仿佛將我凍結（註：某些CT透析需註射特定液體使影象更清晰）……聽著醫護人員的聊天，機器操作的咯吱聲，竟有些微妙的感覺，似乎是屠場待宰的牛羊，心情百般雜陳，深感自身的無力，不停地念佛號……那15分鐘過得比任何時刻都漫長，可還是過去了，借助里邊工作的同事，稍微瞭解到在鼻腔發現腫瘤，鄰近的淋巴線有些腫脹，自己心裡已經有譜了，疾步走至耳鼻喉科會診房見我的主診醫生，此時下著霏霏細雨，風雨搖擺中一片茫然……進入會診房，我的主診醫生坐在我的前邊，表情沉重，緩慢地告訴我──對不起，你得了鼻煙癌，字字清晰有力，對我卻如錐心之痛，心坎里開了個洞，血流如註……醫師如判官般，我永遠不會忘記。
得知罹患癌症的我，雖是醫生，也不過是一介凡夫，心裡天人交戰──是業報，因果循環，是無常給我的一個考題嗎？
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Jiangsu Lianyungang fruit and flowers appear in spring beauty rare rime. More than 600 meters in altitude Peak foot of the mountain, the clouds in the rime branches condensed white light, a splendid sight, people feel like being in fairyland. (Photo: CNS)
Bustling around the patients and their families, and some sit-in waiting, some diffuse talked casually, air-conditioning that is not cold, but Ying-ying, I alone have slight trembling hands, dressed in white robes can not hide my heart loneliness and fear ... ... then what happened three weeks ago, flu symptoms have been ongoing for some time, several antibiotics, eat, and always can not be completely cured. Although this time their physical and mental hospital has been a little tired of the feeling of all. Duty did not really break through, the body can not feel any right, a week ago, appear neck lump, horrified, to the ENT doctor said that because of infection and the sky, take antibiotics will cure . Upon hearing minds are at ease, do not care about, then she was still insists on being a nasal endoscope, the draw samples of nasal cell ... ... Broadcasting Service read out my name, but also interrupt their disordered thinking, is almost inseparable Stethoscope falling on the ground, as if cut through the dignified air, his panic to bend down to pick up, walked into the locker room ... ...I like cattle and sheep slaughteredLay flat finished my CT dialysis, were injected liquid, the biting cold that seems to me to freeze (Note: Some CT dialysis liquid to be injected with a specific image more clearly) ... ... listening to the talk of health care, machine operation squash, actually some delicate feeling, seems to be an abattoir slaughtered cattle, all sorts of smells feeling deeply their own weakness, constantly recite No. ... ... then 15 minutes off than at any time have a long, can still passed inside to work with colleagues, learn a little tumor in the nasal cavity, the adjacent lymph line some swelling, his heart already have spectrum, and walked quickly to the ENT consultation room to go see my doctor, at this time Under a drizzling rain, wind and rain in a swing into a loss ... ... Consultation room, my doctor sat in front of me, face a heavy, slow to tell me ─ ─ sorry, you got snuff cancer, every word are unambiguous, the I like Zhuixin pain, hearts open a hole, bleeding profusely ... ... physicians, such as judge like, I will never forget.That I had cancer, though a doctor, it was no ordinary ordinary person, heart Ascension ─ ─ is karma, cause and effect cycle, is uncertain to me an exam it?
Bustling around the patients and their families, and some sit-in waiting, some diffuse talked casually, air-conditioning that is not cold, but Ying-ying, I alone have slight trembling hands, dressed in white robes can not hide my heart loneliness and fear ... ... then what happened three weeks ago, flu symptoms have been ongoing for some time, several antibiotics, eat, and always can not be completely cured. Although this time their physical and mental hospital has been a little tired of the feeling of all. Duty did not really break through, the body can not feel any right, a week ago, appear neck lump, horrified, to the ENT doctor said that because of infection and the sky, take antibiotics will cure . Upon hearing minds are at ease, do not care about, then she was still insists on being a nasal endoscope, the draw samples of nasal cell ... ... Broadcasting Service read out my name, but also interrupt their disordered thinking, is almost inseparable Stethoscope falling on the ground, as if cut through the dignified air, his panic to bend down to pick up, walked into the locker room ... ...I like cattle and sheep slaughteredLay flat finished my CT dialysis, were injected liquid, the biting cold that seems to me to freeze (Note: Some CT dialysis liquid to be injected with a specific image more clearly) ... ... listening to the talk of health care, machine operation squash, actually some delicate feeling, seems to be an abattoir slaughtered cattle, all sorts of smells feeling deeply their own weakness, constantly recite No. ... ... then 15 minutes off than at any time have a long, can still passed inside to work with colleagues, learn a little tumor in the nasal cavity, the adjacent lymph line some swelling, his heart already have spectrum, and walked quickly to the ENT consultation room to go see my doctor, at this time Under a drizzling rain, wind and rain in a swing into a loss ... ... Consultation room, my doctor sat in front of me, face a heavy, slow to tell me ─ ─ sorry, you got snuff cancer, every word are unambiguous, the I like Zhuixin pain, hearts open a hole, bleeding profusely ... ... physicians, such as judge like, I will never forget.That I had cancer, though a doctor, it was no ordinary ordinary person, heart Ascension ─ ─ is karma, cause and effect cycle, is uncertain to me an exam it?
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